Hello, my dear readersHá quanto tempo! (Long time no see!) How are you doing? Hope fine. I’m alive, as you can see. I caught a bad cold a few days ago (believe it or not, it’s Winter in Brazil! And it’s cold!), but now I can breathe, feel smells and tastes, so, I think I’m ok. At present, I’m having a cup of soy drink with instant coffee and, while the most of people in the neighbourhood fall asleep, I try to find some inspiration to write on this blog again. Don’t be disappointed if I don’t sound very funny today. It will happen sometimes, anyway. And it feels like I’m getting back home after a long and unexpected absence. Everything has changed. Because even if the furniture is the same, at the same place, I’m not the same person anymore and need to get used to everything in a different way (yes, get ready for some philosophy, my dear reader! )
Well. It’s hard to explain this long and unexpected absence. Yes, I had problems with my computer (the same laptop I’m using now), it was a traumatic experience (I’m serious!) and I take time to recover from traumatic experiences or overcome them, don’t ask me why. Many things – good and bad – happened in my life and country in the last months. I don’t remember exactly when I started to use my laptop again (is this lack of memory a sign that I’m getting old? ), but, yes, I thought about to get back to this blog a thousand times before to make the decision! I know that this blog has readers and I know that it wasn’t kind of me to “disappear” (Sorry, people! ). But sometimes we fear to start something again. We, human beings, used to fear the unknown. I fear something else (this is a confession. It means that, now, it’s time to pay more attention at what you’re reading! ): to get involved. This blog is not a diary where I expose my super exciting routine to the world. It’s a relationship between me, the blogger and you, the reader. I’m not writing to myself (you probably have noticed that). And, God! … This is a responsibility! People care about this blog and ask me about it. People missed my posts. People comment my posts (not here, for some reason)! It would be easier to run and hide myself! Well … I tried. “Why?”, you ask me. Because you are responsible for the people who like you and/or what you do. Have you ever thought about that? Have you ever freaked out because of this? Basically we love to believe that we are free to do whatever we want. But this is not true. There’s other people in this world and, if they care about you, you better give them a little bit of your time and attention! In the beginning, I couldn’t expect that people would feel happier because of this blog. I was just writing, you know, without feeling any sense of responsibility. My absence showed me that this is more than a distraction to me and an entertainment to you. I can’t be away from this blog, there’s something about it! I realized that it makes people happy. Of course, sometimes my posts are not cheerful, but anyway, there’s a message on them and it reaches people. I would never expect that it would happen! Writers are usually recognized by their writing skills, by a small group of people, unless they were or are able to create something that touches people’s hearts. I don’t know if I will be recognized by my writing skills, by a small group of people someday. I must confess that I’m not making any effort to be . But I would never expect that my blog would be part of other people’s lives! And … gee! This is something! A huge responsibility (Am I good enough? Will I disappoint them?), but a great blessing!
Even if I only noticed that this blog means something to my readers maybe … yesterday, I’ve always put my best feelings on my writings. That’s me, I am very loving. And it works! People understand this language. Multi Maiden means something on internet not because I’m a brilliant writer or a clever mercenary (I don’t make money with this blog, if you want to know), but because my loving language reaches people. I don’t care about how many readers do I have, I avoid to check this information and fill up my blog with counters. You are not cattle, my dear readers, you are people, so, feel free to visit this blog whenever you want! If it makes you feel better, smile or think, that’s what matters to me! I’ll keep writing about everything and anything and, yes, my city and country will always be mentioned somehow! I will do my best to save some hours to be here, with you. This is a very personal post, but I had no choice. You deserved some explanation. And, if it happens to you, I mean, if you fear to start or keep doing something, don’t think about the thing itself. Think about what does it mean to people around you. If someone feels better because you do something, keep doing it!
Before I start to cry right here (writers are cold people, I hate to get sensitive! … ), I wanna say I’m sorry for this absence, even if I know that everything happens for a reason! Sorry, folks! And I want to say thank you to the person who convinced me to write on this blog again. I won’t give details about it, but we both know what happened yesterday and I want to say that it was the cutest request I’ve ever read! Thank you!
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